For What It’s Worth,
Let’s Consider A Preacher’s Confession



By E. J. Bradshaw

“Confession is good for the soul”; so said Peter De Vries. I must confess that on Thursday morning, January 17th, I awaked inundated physically, emotionally and spiritually in a deep depressed state. I think Webster would have said, “He’s in a deep funk.” Although I always try to will myself to never be overtaken with those feelings, it would have been easy for me to have justified (rationalized) my feelings. For several nights in succession, arthritis had kept me awake ‘till past four in the morning. I have witnessed the discomfort of friends suffering with Restless Leg Syndrome; but I had battled Entire Body Restless Syndrome; and my sleep was disturbed by horrible recurring nightmares. (I know; this is all a part of being blessed with Old Age; and as I often tell others, “More age is not going to help it.”) This is topped off by the never fading sense of joy that my Bobbie is in heaven but missing her in my life.

Have I dragged you down with me? Well, I hope you will find hope in the rest of my confession! Dressed for the day, I cranked Old Betsy and, wiping back some tears, started for my office and work. My radio was tuned to KJAE, and Mel was presenting his usual morning devotional time, and Guy Penrod’s voice, accompanied by the Gaither gang, interrupted my sadness with his rendition of “Just Knowing that You’ll be There, makes it Easy to go Home.” I sang along with them. This was followed by another Gospel Artist Joe Pearls singing, “I Knelt and Prayed for You Today”; and I was refreshed by the knowledge that Christian friends from Louisiana to Montana pray for me each day. I was feeling better.

Then Mel, with his inimitable voice and his always pleasant but descriptive use of words, did his brief but powerful message about the Apostle Peter wanting to go on to heaven with the Lord (John 13:37) but was left on earth. Mel’s explanation of why we are left on earth and God’s purpose for our being here---, well, I just asked the Lord’s forgiveness for my backsliding from the sunshine of God’s love into a case of the Blues. Then the late George Younce’s rendition of “That Says It All” which is a song of assurance of God’s presence with us when we are in our “valley of the shadows---“ lifted my spirits for the ministry God had already laid out for my day. Thank you, Mel Harris and KJ. (By the way, the program can be heard at 9:00 a.m. Monday – Friday at 93.5 on KJAE.

God always has answers and help for us if we will just look and listen for Him to speak! I have found that when I need help, if I call on God and ask, He soon supplies it in the most unusual ways!

You may contact E. J. Bradshaw at 337-238-0440;
Email: vernonbaptistassociation@gmail.com